Sliver of Joy


© Kirsten R. Hazler (2019)

Story

"...I would go along the hall and down the Marthas' stairs at the back and through the kitchen... I would hurry across the few feet of illuminated lawn...

I want to see what can be seen, of him, take him in, memorize him, save him up so I can live on the image, later: the lines of his body, the texture of his flesh, the glisten of sweat on his pelt, his long sardonic unrevealing face. I ought to have done that with Luke, paid more attention, to the details, the moles and scars, the singular creases; I didn't and he's fading. Day by day, night by night he recedes, and I become more faithless..."

- Excerpts from "The Handmaid's Tale" by Margaret Atwood

 

In the MGM/Hulu adaptation of the novel, Nick's character and his relationship with June is fleshed out much more as the series progresses.

 

Rough solo recording here:

Lyrics

I tiptoe down the hallway
I pussyfoot down the stairs
I sneak across the backyard
Hoping no one's there to see me
On my way to take my sliver of joy
On my way to take my sliver of joy
My sliver of joy

The Commander's home is a nightmare
The Commander's wife is a shrew
But the end of the day holds a sweetness
If I can make it up your room to see you
You, you my sliver of joy
You, my sliver of joy
My sliver of joy

I don't know if it's true love
Or just a way to pass the the time
But here I am risking everything
For a few hours of sublime and beautiful you
You, you my sliver of joy
You, my sliver of joy
My sliver of joy

I don't know if it's true love
Or just some kind of escape
But if they ever took you away
My heart would surely break to lose you
You, you my sliver of joy
You, my sliver of joy

I found out yesterday
The man of mine that they took away
Is still alive, and he's working from the other side to find me
And if I ever see him again I will belong to him
But here and now, despite my vow it's you
'Cause you are my only sliver of joy
You are my only sliver of joy

So I tiptoe down the hallway
I pussyfoot down the stairs
I sneak across the backyard
Hoping no one's there to see me
On my way to take my sliver of joy
On my way to take my sliver of joy
You, you're my sliver of joy
You're my sliver of joy.